So I can't sleep.

What a long, great day. One of the best in a long time. It's almost Thursday here, and I leave in 6 hours to fly to London. HELL YEAH! I was there once for like a day, and it was so pretty and wonderful, what I saw of it - which was the bookstore where Mugglecast was on the night Book 7 came out, the airport, and a couple streets.

I'm awake and looking at the stars again. It's beautiful. Everyone and everything is beautiful. My left hand is a little bit heavier and I just feel like jumping up and down on my bed and dancing and screaming and laughing until I burst a rib.

Uh...what is there to do in London? That's what I'm doing now. We'll be there Thursday and Friday and part of Saturday, then we're going to Dublin until Monday, going back to London and flying home. I want to go home so badly.

I really want to go to a Pub...like a real pub. A nice traditional British pub. HAHA. I want to see the crown jewels. I want to go to the Flagship TopShop - I doubt Ethan will want to do that though. I really want to go on the Ferris Wheel. Oooh and the tower. I think that would be so neat. Yeah...and go the Guiness place in Dublin and get beer. I'm not a big beer person though....I will be this weekend I guess.

Hmmm, I guess I'll tell you about the lovely dress I borrowed from my distant cousin and neighbor. It had a v-neck front and back, all chiffon/light airy cotton, it hit at my ankles and had a braided belted empire waist. Beautiful. I gave it back to her though. I wore black sandals. I looked so good in it, espcailly the chest, but I said that in my last post.

Part of me felt really guilty about today because our parents weren't there and I'm so close to mine. Anyway...I'm gonna sketch for a bit and go back to sleep. I love you all, I really do. Thanks for everything you've all done for me this past year. It means so much.

This wasn't how I pictured today at all...

I'll make a list.


1-We were going to be in a field or something.
2-Our families were supposed to be there.
3-We weren't supposed to be spontaneous...if being drunk is spontaneous.
4-I was supposed to be wearing a good dress...(I did find one though. My neighbor was like "try my dress!" So I did and it's freaking beautiful)
5-I was supposed to be able to understand the priest.
6-Certain friends were supposed to be there.
7-In my head, I was older.
8-My dad thinks I'm pregnant and wants me to mail him a peestick. Which I don't think I am.....if I am, then I'll do certain actions that will leave me in jail and a certain someone in a box.




I think that's it. Two hours. Oooh...good things about today.


1-I look hot. HAHA. My boobs look so good in this dress. Is that bad that I'm calling myself hot?
2-Perfect freaking food. I love my uncles. :)
3-Ethan looks so -I was going to say "fuckable" but for some reason it didn't look right, but you get the idea- in light blue.
4-The fact that as much as I think this is all pointless, a formality on this point, I'm honestly kinda loving it.
5-The fact that, finally, something in my life is definate.


OH! So, Thursday we're leaving for London. We'll be there for a couple days, then we're going to Ireland. I've always wanted to go to the land of the Irish. Then it's home on Monday. I want to be in my city so bad it hurts.

As much as I can't stand Miley Cyrus....

I love her song "The Climb" but her man voice annoys me.

I'm really craving some Japanese food. Random. Ehhhh, that will have to wait.

And I've posted so much recently, but whatever. A week from today, I fly home. Actually, I fly to London first because of a layover....but then New York. I want to be in my own bed so badly.

Gossip Girl was really great. :) Anyway....I'm going to go crash for like 6 hours then hopefully find a dress. Well, I must find a dress as I couldn't find one yesterday. Grr. I'm trying a different town, maybe I'll have more luck there. :)

Rawr.

So, I'm sitting here in this loverly cushy chair drinking wine, talking to my sister Cassie, watching a really old Oprah that's badly dubbed in Greek and subtitled. I'm a good multitasker.

Hmm. I think I'm going to do another semi-all nighter and sleep for a bit now and wake up. I took a nap this afternoon. I woke up at three AM and sat awake and read then went for a run...which is quite difficult here because of all the steps. So I ended up walking up the steps and running laps around my uncles winery for a few hours. I love running..it is really exhilerating. It's so wonderful here at night, just looking at the lights and stars and moon. I tried taking a picture last night but it did work. I'm trying again now with my webcam...maybe that will work. Hmm...never mind it didn't. Oh well.

I think that's it right now. OH YEAH! Since it is the GossipGirl season finale, I found it streaming live online somewhere because knowing me I'd look it up and find out what happened and that would make me really really mad. So I'll be here at like 8ish EST, so I'll be here watching it and on AIM....if you should feeling chatting with me.

Wedding.

So don't freak out completely. Wednesday afternoon I'm getting married. It's all very sudden, but honestly, it's kind of like we already are in ways. So, anyway...basically it all was decided over a bottle of wine, the recent tragic death of our friend and the fact that I was like "I want to get married here" and Ethan was like "Well, why the hell not?"

But honestly, it's inevitable. Think what you want....

(651): Last night while we were having sex,

'God bless the USA' started playing on his itunes. He came almost immediately... so awkward.

I got really really really happy about 12 hours ago. That is a good thing, obviously. I was eating with my family and out of nowhere this redheaded, freckled face, lost looking, beautiful person comes wandering up the steps in aviators (why the hell was he wearing aviators? I personally hate them on everyone) and the sexiest freaking wonderful teeshirt that I don't ever remember buying for him - which made me happier. I buy all of Ethan's clothes...he has absolutley no fashion sense. I started buying them like a two years ago, when he showed up to school wearing red gym shorts, a green Celtic's tee, and brown Nikes. Sorry, but eww.

Gosh...that makes me so happy that he came all the way here, when he was due here next week. I think I'm gonna stay longer now, my mom and the kids go home Tuesday and my cousins are working/school full time, so I'm basically alone. I help in the restaurant, but sometimes my Greek isn't as fast as it needs to be.

Anyway, I practically lunged across the table and attacked him. My little sister, Katherine, ran behind me and wrapped herself around his leg. So cute. Anyway, now that I am not super alone, I am happier. Today it's church and we, my cousins Ethan and I, are going for a long walk and trying not to get lost this time. Wednesday, we took a walk and ended up in the middle of nowhere and had to ask this deaf guy for directions. Not fun.

I really want it to rain, but I'm rambling. So bye for now.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I freaking love http://www.textsfromlastnight.com It is my new favorite thing. Seriously.

I'm sitting here laughing my head off dying from hysterical laughter. My ribs hurt from laughing so hard and I'm crying.....yeah.

Some of my favorites:

(303): The pink midgets playing hockey is the EXACT reason cold meds and alcohol do not mix. Period.

(412): I have a feeling that after last night, i'm not just going to hell. i'm going to hell on a full scholarship. free admission bitches

(813): you were crying and the really sympathetic homeless man offered you a sip of his whiskey. who was i to stop you?

(205): I only kidnapped one of them. chill

(201): we were just talking about designated drivers and i suggested we each hire a mexican day laborer to give us piggy back rides... i have the best ideas eveeer

(512): I just came so hard I farted. Twice. Thank God I'm alone.

(708): i just got a UPS package from a name and address i dont know, with one of my thongs in it. no recollection.

(941): I think that we as people have rights and that we should at the very least be warned before being subjected to Fergie

(508): Its about time the women of america have a president they can masturbate to again

(480): WHY CAN'T YOU EVER SHIT LIKE A NORMAL PERSON, JESSE.

(805): peeing is so easy when youre drunk. you just tell your body to pee and it pees.

(913): U Should have said " it's ok baby most girls Sh*t when I do that.

(857): seriously iPhone. stop autocorrecting all my fucks into ducks. you're making all my strong worded texts look harmless and adorable.

(917): this kid just came up to me and asked me if i wanted to play truth or aids with him and his friends. i'm in

(812): So someone put the baby mannequins in sex positions

(907): I told her it just looked small because my balls were gigantic. She bought it.

(312): She was drunk and kept trying to talk while I was in her mouth. It sounded like the teacher from a Charlie Brown cartoon!

(201): what do you think about when you wanna get rid of a boner?
(1-201): dying kittens.

(413): so, totally just picked up a pack of red bull, and some magnum condoms and the old woman at the register's tone went from "hi blah how are you" to "oh....how YOU DOIN'?" she knew what was up

(303): My hand turned me down

(989): Well a couple things dont make sense to me. Like people in wheelchairs that have dirty shoes.

(510): my mario cart skills improve with alchohol. and i think my real car skills do to but the cop didnt see my logic

(515): She has a t-rex face on a stuart little body.

(775): I think the only thing that impresses me are nice penises...and Jesus. Jesus would impress me. Especially if he walked on water again

(650): Jason Mraz mixed with John Mayer and a splash of orgasmmm


HAHAHAHA sorry for so many...I kinda went a bit extreme with that. Go to the site....it is so amazing. Anyway today I'm cooking with Alexia and Dem, and then we're going dancing and stuff. Going home Monday.

One way Two say, Three words Four you....I love you.

Listening to the Plain White Tee's. I can do that on guitar. When I get back to NY, or soon idk which, but I promise a mini concert. I'll make a list of songs I can do and you all can pick them.

Anyway, recent events that I'm not going into right now, have taught me to just appreciate life. Do not take ANYTHING for granted. Love the people you hate, because of their flaws. Smile at everyone. Let everyone into your life no matter what they've done in their past that is a bit dodgy. Be a person that is positive for the world. Every second wasted is a moment lost.

Actually, I'll tell you. I got an email last night from a mutual friend from highschool. A boy that was friends with everyone killed himself last Friday. I found out almost a week later, I would have gone out to the service for him if I knew. He was amazing and always had a smile and nothing was ever wrong with him to my knowledge. It is just odd to me that someone that was just the light and laughter of the school do that.

What I just been thinking about all day is maybe I could have done something to prevent it, anyone could have. Maybe just being there for him. No one really knew that there was anything wrong. That scares me. Are we all just too oblivious?

This all goes back to the header for this, yeah, it's a love song, but if we all just said "I love you" to someone everyday....who knows what could happen?

Anyway...think about it. I'm leaving Greece earlier than I planned, I was staying until June 12th originally, but I'm going home on Monday. I love it here, but I just need America right now. I need to be closer to my family, my friends, etc.

Oh yeah, I accidently put a hole through my new guitar. Not good. I was fumbling around in the dark and stepped on it....oops. Guess its back to the crapper.

It's 4 am

And I've been up for about 17 hours straight. We left Italy early yesterday to fly to Santorini - first time I arrived by plane because my grandmother was not good at all. She was getting worse by the minute. We said goodbye and just sat outside her house, my whole Greek family just waiting. And she passed at about 1 AM. Well, it's three hours later and I'm just ready to crash. But I wanted to share with you all a little about my grandmother.

Her name is Zeta, short for something - I'll find out and get back to you. We all just called her Zeta. She was mother of 5, with 12 grandchildren and 3 great grandchildren. She met all of them before she died. Umm, she married my grandfather at age 18 and they opened a restaurant my uncle now owns. She was an awesome woman. She was 83 years old.

Anyway, more posts and lost of online time coming soon. I feel like I haven't talked to some of you in forever. Good night to you, goodmorning to me. I'm sleeping forever.

Siedo in un aeroporto, e annoiato.

Okay, so I'm sitting in the airport and it is 6:30 and I'm waiting for our plane. We've been sitting here for about a half hour. It is always good to get to airports early. Espcially with kids. Who are running in circles by the windows where we are sitting and waiting and watching the planes. We should be leaving in about a half hour. Lovely long flight too. Its like 11 hours to Paris, then a little layover and a three hour flight to Rome. With the time change we land in Rome at like, 2 in the afternoon. That's wierd to me.

So I'm going to be getting a lot of sleep, depending on the awakness of the kids. Two five year old girls, Isabella and Katherine, and three year old and one year old boys, George and Guytano.

Damnitydamnfreakingcrap. I just spilled lovely hot cocoa all over my dress. Lovely.

Oh, yeah....I FINALLY got a better guitar. Not the one I wanted, but it is a Fender. It is black and beautiful. It is sitting next to me....in the case obviously.

Anyway, I can garuntee, that I'll be alone in the land of white houses and blue skies aka Santorini, I'll be online a lot. HAHA

Arrivederci!

I want to hold your hand...

Untitled - by the_wanderer on Polyvore.com

So, I'm home and am honestly so insanely happy. Its probably endorphins or whatever. But my camera is being an idiot and isn't uploading my pictures....they'll be up eventually. Hopefully. :)

So for today point. I want to hold your hand. This was all inspired by a great movie, and book, one of my favorites, Nick and Nora.

"The Beatles, they had it all figured out, okay? "I Want to Hold Your Hand." The first single. It's effing brilliant, right?... That's what everybody wants. They don't want a twenty-four-hour hump sesh, they don't want to be married to you for a hundred years. They just want to hold your hand. "

Lyrics:
I tell you something
I think you'll understand
When I say that something
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
Please say to me
You'll let me be your man
And please say to me
You'll let me hold your hand
Now let me hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
And when I touch you I feel happy inside
It's such a feeling that my love, I can't hide
I want to hold your hand.


Now...I had a minor rant on twitter earlier. I'm copy and pasting it in, then rambling for awhile.

Nothin gets better than hand holding. Ever. While walking, while kissing, driving...anytime, anywhere. It conectects you to that one person and really - that's all that matters. Knowing that you don't want to let go at all. Ever.

Okay. So lets expand on this idea.

I don't think that in any relationship ever starts by look at someone and going "I want to fuck them hard." No...its' "I want to know more about that person and spend time. I want to hold their hand."

Maybe some people go straight to bed...idk. But really, it is the easiest and greatest way to just say "Hey, I like you, it may not be forever, but for now, I just want to do this."

I love this song, thought whatever. I could ramble forever. I love hand holding...I love love. I'm just in a really great mood. Seriously....its been a long time since I've been this way. I love this feeling. The whole that was in me is gone for the most part...there will always be a scab to remind me, but for now, I don't plan on picking it off like a little kid.

Actually - I lied. One thing is pissing me off. The customs people in Boston stole my wine. That was expensive wine too. Aparently under-21s can't bring alcohol into the country...umm...Bullshit?

Whatever.....I'm having my Grandma mail me some. :) And remember...hand holding rocks!

I've deleted last night's post.

Long story short...I don't want to come here someday and relive that. Like Raven said, it's really not that big of a deal...but still. It was a mistake. I can handle that. No one is perfect.

Anyway...I guess everything is good between me and Ethan...I really don't know. I talked to him a bit tonight, but whatever. If he gets all extreme about this because its just not that big of a deal.

Hmm, so I go home Wednesday...well, start my trip home, technically I'll leave Wed and get to NY on Wed, but its still over 24 hours of travel time, including annoying layovers.

Ummmmm yeah. I think that I'm gonna sleep now.

Btw, you all need to get a twitter. Seriously.

The constant sun

I was going to put a poem I wrote up here, but would much rather stay here in my bed before getting up. I set my alarm for 6 so I'd have time to get ready before we left to go to Mykonos and right now its a little after 5. Whatever, I've discovered recently that I am very nocturnal. I should do this in a list form.

1-I love it here. So much. Note the twitter updates one the right. I've been putting these up about 5 times a day. Its easier than blogging.
2-Its been 70 degrees and sunny everyday. No clouds in sight most of the time. Love.
3-The moon here is amazing. Actually, stunning would be the better word. Sad part is pictures don't capture it well enough.
4-The fact that typing this is really hard, because I've been thinking/talking in Greek.
5-I have a TAN. and freckles - which are still wierd to me that I've got them.
6-My cousin has fallen for Kate. Kate has fallen for my cousin. Neither can speak each other's language...leaving me to be their translator. Not fun....
7-Cliff diving....is exhilerating. Hiking to the cliff is not.
8-I have a blister from not being used to wearing flipflops...ouch.
9-I hate the fact that the US$ is shit in Europe.
10-I love the fact that right now, I'm looking out my window and can see the sun rising over Fira.
11-I really love how some things you'll never forget. Like the nice old lady at the fish market my uncles sell at....she was acient and is still sitting in the same spot selling squid when I was a little kid.
12-The fact that I can sit at my uncles with Kate and George and my other cousins and drink wine, as much as we want...and not get introuble.
13-I love the fact that donkeys are awesome.
14-I love how there's no cars, or very few cars here.
15-I love that I'm home. :) Do I have to go back to real life?

Picture TIME!!!!

This is the view from the ferry as you get to the island. :)


SUNSET...the outer islands. one has hotsprings and is an active volcano, the other is just a lump of land with people living there.