Tuesday, August 12, 2008

More than a Memory

I MISS MY FRIEND. i thought i was handeling this so well, but today was just bad. I'm allowed a sad day everyonce and awhile. I don't like to say that i have and excuse, but i do. and i miss her.

so much.

i am listening to this song on repeat and crying.i haven't heard it in a month and when i heard it today i just lost it. i guess its just one of those days because for the second time i had a dream about her. and it was too real.

we were in school, back around 5th grade and we were at recess and she went down the slide first but when i got to the bottom i couldn't find her and i ran around and the when the teacher asked me what i was looking for i told her my friend kelli nad she said there's nobody named kelli in this school.read these:

anyway...I was going to upload a video of me singing this song, but this website is being an idiot and not letting me.

People say she's only in my head
Its gonna take time to laugh again
They say I need to get on with my lifeBut they don't realize
Is when your dialing 6 numbers just to hang up the phone.
Driving cross town just to see if she's home.
Waking a friend in the dead of night, just to hear 'em say it's gonna be alright.
When your finding things to do not to fall asleep cuz you know she'll be there in your dreams.
Thats when she's more than a memory
Cuz when your talking out loud and nobody's there
You look like hell and you just don't care
Drinking more than you've ever drank
Sinking down lower than you've ever sank
When you find yourself falling down upon your knees, praying to God, begging him PLEASE
That's when she's
More than a Memory

more than a memory - garth brooks.

I think I need help


  1. aw ally. that made me tear up. i hadn't realized that you'd known her that long.
    you'll get through it though. i know you will.
    just stay strong and know that its okay to miss her. theres nothing wrong with that. when you miss her i think that thats when you know she's more than a memory. right? Lol. i don't know. but its good to think about her all the time and miss her cause she was obviously a very special friend and person in general.
    stay strong ally.
    i'ma pray for the both of you. =]

  2. cheer up please. i love you. i hate seeing you like this. it makes me sad.