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Its already the New Year in over half the world. I've gotten a call from my cousin in Greece and its almost time in Italy...5 minutes I think.

Anyway, that means its 8 hours until its time here. 8 hours to 5. I cannot believe its been that long. I mean...we weren't even couply until we were like, 15.

So, we're going to dinner. alone. And then its off to a friends house for a little and then, hopefully, to the beach to ring in the New Year. If not, then its to somewhere....hopfully.

I hate not having concrete plans. I'm like a major plan ahead person. To the extent that it annoys people very much. I also took a picture of my belly button (and my outfit, Morena, even though its nothing we talked about) to show you guys.

As for the whole talking to my dad issue, we had a "friendly" convo today. Which was nice.

Oh, I bought Harry, A History by Mellissa Anelli of the Leaky Cauldron and its really slightly embarrassing that I can remember exactly where I was when I found out when the last book was coming out. (At school, study hall, and got a text from my friend and screamed). Anyway, Its very good and I love it. I read it all today.

Well, its been the new year in Italy for the last 7 minutes and I'm gone for the night.

Have a safe and happy new year everyone!! Happy 09!

My Belly Button

Wierd random convo this morning while eating breakfast (CINNAMON BUNS!!!). I was sitting on the counter and I had my bathing suit top on b/c I was going to go in my friends hotub. And Ethan was sitting and eating with my sis, Ili and this occurs.
A- me, E- Ethan, I - Illiana.

E-You're bellybutton's wierd.
A-No...its not. Its normal.
I-Yeah. It kinda is.
A-What do you mean?
E-Its like....not centered. Most are like right above the jeans button and in a straight line from the nose.
A-And mine isn't???
E-Yeah, stand up. Illi, lift up your shirt too. See...her's is in the right spot.
A-Uhuh...whats the big deal though.
E-Idk...its just different. But you are too.

And I'm laying here and they're right...its not centered. Wierd.

2009. GOALS

1. Get my body back. 95% of people but "wieght loss" in their NYRs and I fit that. I want my abs back. And my lung capacity, and stamina back. I will work on it. I kinda want one of those bender ball things. My abs were AMAZING. It would be nice to have them again. And to be able to run 5 miles without a problem like I could before.

2. Talk with people more about things that matter.

3. Make a difference.

4. Cut back on computer time. Seriously.

5. I had one more, but I forgot it.

2008, a Playlist

Better in Time - Leona Lewis anthem of my year. because it all gets better in time.

I Still Miss You - Kieth Anderson the first six are all actually, I'll always miss you.

More Than A Memory - Garth Brooks "when you're waking up a friend in the dead of night just to here him say its gonna be all right"

Miserable at Best - Mayday Parade "I can live without you but, without I'll be miserable at best" This is actually a break up song, but that line stands out to me. I cried when I saw them live and they did this.

Breathe - Taylor Swift "I can't breathe without you, but I have to breathe"

Change - Taylor Swift "These things will change." it DOES change. it DOES get better. I'm living proof of this.

Halo - Beyonce "Hit me like a ray of sun, burning through my darkest night, You're the only one I want, I Think I'm addicted to your light."

Letter to Me - Brad Paisley This song is great.

My Wish - Rascal Flatts "When its cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile" Another life anthem. Kelli loved this song.

Mary's Song - Taylor Swift (this song will be on it every year) "You looked at me, got down on one knee." --the songs alomost over now :)

Simple - Katy Perry Its Katy, its a funny song, but it's very good. I love it.

Chicken Fried - Zac Brown Band "A pair of jeans that fit just right, and the radio up" This song is like, the twangiest country song, but I love it. Its simple and truthful.

Fearless - Taylor Swift "You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless, and I don't know why but with you I'd dance, in a storm, in my best dress, fearless" I love this song. I love dancing in the rain. I love date nights. I love kissing in the rain. Takes me back to, I think, Kansas, and it was drizzling, and I forced E to pull over and dance of the side of the highway.

I'm Yours - Jason Mraz Summer song. I love this. Even though my summer was shit, I would hear this and smile for 3 minutes. And its acoustic.

After Tonight - Justin Norzuka I have a *slight* obsession with this song.

Stay Awake (acoustic) - All Time Low "Before you ask which way to go, remember where you've been......dreams only last for a night" Okay...so this song is like 438718976109487610697130967 times better acoustic. They did it when I saw them and I was like...URGH because I don't like it as much with all the guitars and drums and bass.

Every Day - Rascal Flatts "Every day, you save, my life" I couldn't have made it through this year without a few people, one specifically, and that line is like BAM on the personalness scale.

Skin - Rascal Flatts "She dreams she's dancing, around and around, without any cares" When I here this song and see the video, I cry. It's Kelli. They did it in concert and It was just Jay and the piano and it was beautiful.

All these songs mean something huge to me and are all now burned onto a cd to stick in the envelope titled 2008 with everything I want to save. I suggesting listening to a few of them because they are GREAT songs!

2008 - A reflection.

The year of growing up.
Graduating early, moving away from the family, and growing up emotionally
The year of breaking down.
Loosing it too many times. Loosing it over people, over me, over anything depending on my mood.
The year of fun.
As much pain that I was in this year, I had a lot of fun. Probably the most all year.
The year of loss.
Loosing my best friend is probably the one event that will stand out to me. I miss you.
The year of love.
And realizing the person who I need the most will always be there for me.
The year of learning.
College has changed me. And I've learned so much more than just acedemically.
The year of stupidity.
Face it head on, I started this year stupid. But learned from my mistakes. I hope.
The year of hope.
For the first time, I felt hope and pride of living in this country. Thank you Mr. President-Elect.
The year of music.
This year was probably the most musical of my life. I'm posting a playlist of the year soon.
The year of growing, physically.
I grew 3.7 inches this year. Bringing me to five feet five and a half inches. YAY!
The year of growing, mentally.
State the obvious, my brain's been expanded. Vocab is 10x better than it was 2 years ago. And in general, I just know so much more.

Overall, 2008 is the toughest, most challenging year of my life. But it had its great moments. Most memorable year so far - in good and bad ways.

Goodbye, two thousand eight. Hello two thousand nine.

Shopping today

Here's Some of What I Go:



From left to right:
Black ruffle dress, f21, I really like it. wearing my jeans under it and the second too.
Satin flower dress, f21, in the pic its not zippered in the back. I LOVED this.
black skirt, h&m, with buttons on the waist. its versitile
black ruffle skirt, h&m, new years eve anyone?

Also got: pink satin flats, lots of bracelets (my new obsession), black ankle boots from target, a scarf, a few flowered wrap shirts, a white lace tank, black sweater thing with the long front that your can wrap around yourself and snuggle into, a loot from bath and body works, dark green skinny jeans, red high waisted shorts, black pinstripe vest, red sequin covered shift dress, purple pumps, lace tights, flower printed tights, tee shirts to decorate, and comfy sweats.

Oh...and everything was on sale for less than half its original price! I spent only like 130$ today!!!

Style

My wardrobe needs an update. Bad. And I have all this freetime. So I might as well use it. So hopefully this will work. 2009 is the year of Fabulous, Flawless, and Fun. Hopefully.

People Who's Style I Idolize:

Camilla Belle: because she has similar skin tones and coloring as me. She's carries herself well, and has style. I love the way she uses color, and the simple, but perfect accesorizing she uses. My favorite look here would have to be the blue dress, the white ruffly one or the one above it to the left (black and white).

Taylor Swift: Lets just state the obvious, I love this girl. From her shoes, she's almost six feet tall but not afraid to tower in heels. She can carry almost every type of clothing and has great taste. I love her in almost every thing I see her in. My favorite looks here would have to be the the Louboutin Boots outfit with the skirt, the white skirt, and the white Marchesa dress at the ACM Awards (bottom left).

Somehow, I will emulate these two lovely ladies style next year. I chose these two because they're youthful, inspiring, and bold.


Oh...if you click on the pictures of Taylor and Camilla it makes them bigger.

Random

The note from Ethan. (because its illegible)

It says:

A-

Someday you are going to be such a great mother. You are such an amazing person and I don't tell you that enough. I am honored to know you. These kids that you've practically raised don't realize it either. I cannot wait to have a family with you and I just realized this now. I am so lucky to have you. I love you.

-E

Seriously, that rates in the top 5 of the sweetest things he's ever done.

I love my friend Mattie. He's the male equivalent of myself. I met up with him and he brought this gorgoues (I spelt this wrong) guy with him...and I was like, "For me?" and then he was like, "No...for me."

But he left, and it was just me and Mattie and it was so much fun. I hadn't had that much fun in a long time. Which was great.

Anway...the next post will be a reflection of 2008. aka the toughest but best year of my life.

I had a grown-up convo today.

And that made me happy. I was with my little brother and the twins outside on the swings and Ethan was there, and we don't normally have these types of conversations. And that made me...like, beyond estatic. Actually....to put it this way...it wasn't even a convo. It was a note left on the table before he left. I never noticed him write it or leave it there. But we talked after. And it was probably the most mature conversation we've ever had.

Its just these random things that happen that make me happy. So this note, I'll take a picture of it for you guys tommarow. It made my day.

And did I mention that I need a life? I have no life. I waste so much time on the internet. But honestly, I have nothing else to do. Tommarow night, I'm going out to dinner with my BGF. He's awesome. We've been in the same drama class all throught Cali HS and he made the shit days hilarious. I probably spent more hours after school with Mattie than I did with anyone else. I haven't seen him since May - he went to London - and we've kept in contact.

Oh...did I also mention that 4/5 movies I've watched are created for hopeless romantics. I really need a life.

Snow Pictures Post

These two are on the way up to skiing.



more snow stuff.

My memory card of NYC at Christmas got deleted/lost. grrr.