Heartbreak

Why do boys do bad things?
Why do boys hurt beautiful girls who've been through enough?
Better yet, why do boys who seem like good boys cheat on good girls?

This is what I've been asking myself since yesterday. So let me tell you a story.

Once there was a beautiful girl with smooth chocolate-y skin and a beautiful smile. She was confident and true to her words. She loved her friends and would be their for their tears and force laughter and smiles when they really needed it. Then, when she was 13, her parents got divorced, she moved away from the city she grew up in and her dad moved too, meaning....she never got to see her friends who got reallly selfish about that (and still are) and then her mom began verbally abusing her and her little sister. But they stayed strong. This girl helped raise her little sister because her mother basically couldn't. Then, at age 17, she helped a girl who couldn't always find a smile get through the worst and told her she was beautiful when she was bald and rubbed her back when she puked from the chemo. She did what others couldn't do. Then this friend passed, and we had to deal and we did, she did better than me but we got through it and came out stronger with a purpose to live. Then, this past December, this abuse got even worse with her mothe, so she made the decision in the middle of her senior year to take her sister and move to Boston...a hundred or so miles away from her mother becuase it became too much and she needed to. Then, when she was there, she was happier than ever. Her sister made good friends, she made good friends. And then, when she turned 18 in April, she met this great guy...a junior at her school. They went to prom together, and then, her best friend AKA ME, met him and approved. He was the nicest guy, sweet, adorable. They shared three weeks in Germany with thier schools exchange this July and June and then, a week after they get home...

BAM. She sees him cheating on her. Like that, everything good about this boy becomes bad. And it just makes me so mad that, someone who knew all of that, would go and do that to her. It's not right. It makes me so mad.

So today she came up and we went for a long walk on the beach and hung out and baked and blasted revenge songs (the best ones "kerosene" and "picture to burn") and we danced and screamed the lyrics. Just had some good girl time.

She's just so heartbroken and I wish I could do more to help her. Make it all feel better. But I can't. I don't think nothing can.

Oh yeah....we wrote a really really great guy-trashing breakup song. Well, a few songs...but one good one. Haha.

picture from Leaky. my pics will be coming as soon as possible. right now my camera isn't acessible and I want a chance to pic the best ones. :D

I woke up at 3 am this morning. I love Emma's dress. Everyone looked so great. Yesterday was amazing. So great. I can't believe it acutally happened. Harry Potter was the first book I read in English entirely by myself in second grade. English. I've grown up with it and it's like a friend to me. I've watched these actors grow up and these books have been there when I didn't have anyone.

OH LANCE! I forgot about him. I left with my sister around 4 to get dressed for the movie after since we were in sweats and stuff. And I came back with a little wristlet clutch and Lance Bass came by and I didn't want him to sign the poster I had, so he signed my clutch. My inner twelve year old was freaking out and crying uncontrollably at the fact that his hand was touching me. I held it together though. I did tell him that I missed Nsync. :D

Umm redcarpet was amazing. I got pictures of everyone. Everyone was beautiful. And autographs from as many as possible. And I took a picture with Emma Watson which cut off like half my head but whatever. I told her I loved the Burberry Campaign and the TeenVogue cover (which if you haven';t seen it, it's stunning along with the spread. Actually her first cover on TV was the first one of those I ever got and it will also be my last becuase I haaven't renewed my subscription.) and that's she's beautiful and each movie she's becoming a more talented and graceful actress.

Now for the part that you really want to know. The Movie. It was AMAZING! Best one yet. The opening scene is amazing. And it's a bit slow for a while but the end...OH MY GOSH. The inferi are perfect. And everything is great. I don't like that they added in the Burrow getting attacked but whatever. I cna't change it. QUIDDITCH IS PERFECT AND AWESOME. and I really really really missed it. Oh...and the kiss between Harry and Ginny could have been so much better. :( I don't know how much more I can say without getting taken away by the dementors (WB) for saying to much. But I will be seeing it again next Wednesday. Everyone must see this. It is so great.

I really really really am so blessed and I am so happy. Last night was better than seeing Taylor in May. :D And that's something that I thouhgt I would never ever say.

Taylor in NYC

I didn't take this pic. I was too far away. I could just see the top of her head.

So...I got there at 3am and there was already a lot of people in a line. They would let us into the plaza. It was insane. And it was totally worth it. Once they let us in, it started POURING> I squeezed my way through the crowd to get to near the entrance of the Today Show building is, where all the people go in and out. Her dad and brother were standing near me during her performances, so I like made them notice me and gave them my giftie (a tee shirt with a letter from me on the back, then a longer letter for Taylor inside the bag and brownies) and Austin was like "Taylor will love this." That was at like 7ish.

Then she did a sound check. I heard the band warming up and someone singing Love Story, but I was like "ehh no that's not Taylor" then all the umbrellas went down and people started screaming and she came on stage and someone held an umbrella over her heard. She did a bit of Love Story and You Belong With Me. Then she took the 12 string guitar out and I was like "YES FEARLESS!!!" but I could really hear. The girl next to me said it was Umbrella.
AND I WAS COHERENT WHEN TALKING TO HER!!! That hasn't ever happened. Then I got Taylor's autograph too. On my shirt. Ahhh so amazing! Taking a picture of that shortly And I wish that I brought my camera with me. She offered to take a pic but no camera.....effer. I've met her 3 times now and no camera everytime. But this girl near me said she got a picture of us talking and will send it to me....but it's not a good one probably. I left mine home today because it was pouring when I left. I told her about her gift I made and she was like "aww thanks!" I had my phone but that comes out really small and bad quality. She was amazing. So amazing.

She did Love Story, You Belong with Me, Our Song and Teardrops. I was hoping for some acoustic Fearless, as it fit the mood of the rainy day. But no....it didn't happen...grrr.

Oh yeah, and they gave away foam guitars, tee shirts, buttons and cowboy hats. I got a guitar and a pink cowboy hat. HAHA!

She also said that when she was upstairs and looked down at the umbrellas and wet hair that she teared up and couldn't be happier. She was so sincerely nice and amazed at everyone who was like "thank you for writing this song, it really touched me" and when people told how amazing she was and stuff like that she looked shocked, almost like "wow." It was amazing, she truely loves us - her fans. She hasn't changed, this whole sudden burst to mega stardom hasn't made her high headed. She's the same girl who started this when she was 16 and would sign autographs for everyone and stay as long as she needed to to get it done. I'm so proud. :)

Needless to say, one of the best days of my life.


Random bit of info...her hair is so soft in person. Mine was alll nasty from the rain, but hers was perfect. I didn't touch it, but my arm brushed it when she hugged me. AHHH YESSS!!!!

allywisdom

I like it when I throw myself under the bus, let the shit hit the fan and then hit me.
However, it isn't cool at all when people put me under the bus and think I'll be okay with it.

I like provoking some people for fun.
I don't like it when people get me introuble.

I like it when I can scream and yell for no reason.
I don't like it when I have a reason.

I like it when I can dance when no one is watching.
I don't like it when the neighbors see me.

I like it when I can DA in my own home.
I do not like PDAs.

I like it when he pisses me off for fun.
I don't like it when he doesn't know that he pissed me off
Let the shit hit the fan and push me under.

Thanks. Goodnight. Finals next week. Grr...

Turn a page, I'm a book half unread

Edited picture of moi. Taken in Maine. I have tons of beach pictures but I don't feel like putting them up right now. Quote from one of my favorite songs, read below a few posts.

Okay, so something has really been pissing me off and his name is Perez Hilton. You've must have heard about the whole Miss California contrevorsy. His question was "What is your opinion on gay marriage?"

She answered honestly, her opinion. And now he has this issue with it and so does the rest of the world.

Now here's what I don't understand, would it have been best for her to lie, say the "politically correct answer" and go against herself and her beliefs? No.

So now there's this whole thing about how it cost her the crown. I honestly think beauty pagents are a joke, but seriously. AT LEAST SHE SPOKE HER MIND!

THIS IS AMERICA! WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH HERE! WE ARE ALLOWED TO SAY WHAT WE WANT SO PEREZ HILTON STFU!!!

thank you, goodnight. :)

SERIOUSLY????

Ahh, before I rant forever, I'm posting videos so you know what I'm talking about.





Yesterday was a great day. In all aspects of my life. It started out by a nice run along the West Side Highway, and then I went to TopShop with Tobie and then we spent the afternoon in the park painting our toenails and signing and dancing like idiots. So much fun. I bought I sequined dress in baby pink and its so cute. I can't find somewhere to wear it too.

Then, at 8 PM, my country side came out and I sat on the couch with a bowl of ice cream and watched my girl, Taylor Swift, of whom I've been a fan for just about 4 years now. And lets just say, she's been a postive influence on my life. Her music made me start to like music again. Before that I never really listened to much, but I found her music and now I can't live without it. Anyway....Taylor kicked some ass.

She, and so many other great people like Rascal Flatts and Sugarland, came out for the introduction and did a medly. That was great. And I sat and watched, while videochatting with my sister, and then Taylor performed. By a magical introduction. Which was pretty cool, I don't really like the whole magic thing, except Harry Potter, but that was neat. And she sang "You're Not Sorry" - not my favorite from her, but a good song. And she was a bit flat. I don't think she's there yet vocally, which is probably why she lost that award.

Anyway.....then after she performed, Reba gave her this little glass thing called a Milestone Award, whatever, that's one of them. I thought "Oh, its a consolation prize to make her feel better. She won't get any other award. The Academy doesn't like the pop-y Fearless that much" So I stopped paying attention. And then, half asleep, I hear Album of the Year getting announced and I looked up and her name was called and in a spilt second I was off the couch screaming and jumping and crying - yeah crying...haha. It seems so stupid now. And Ethan came running in and was like "What's wrong?" And I just couldn't explain and had to rewind for the acceptance speeches and I just couldn't stop crying. I'm still happy about it.

And sitting there watching her take the award for the least-country album that was nominated, and thinking about when she won the Horizon Award and getting so happy over that because she was just so adorable getting that award. And she's come full circle, from the little girl wearing a really (I hate to say it but) ugly sundress just to walk the redcarpet to promote her first album, to perfomring Tim McGraw to Tim McGraw and everyone cheering every break in the song, to now, taking over the world. She really is. She's come full circle and I'm so proud of her.

And now you all are reading this going "She insane" and "Why the hell would a city girl like Country Music so much?" Music to me is like breathing. I need to have it my life, and I'm so fortunate that I've found a genre that has done that to me. Country music is just so pure and wonderful and honest. Not much so in other genres. And part of it really reminds me of Greece.

Have a good week everyone!