Happy Valentines Day....

But what's really happy about it. I mean, its a day for hallmark to earn some money. Its really honestly pointless on the Holidays scale, right above Ground Hogs Day (definatly the most pointless holiday) and right below Boxing Day (just because two holidays in a row is a great thing...haha). So you've guessed by now that I really don't like this day....Its just another day of the year and if you love someone, you shouldn't devote a day to it, you should celebrate your love all year round. <3

In other news, I've just gotten back from the town where my family is moving too. I saw their new house (I love it...but they're hiring people to add on and put a room in the attic and two others in the basement). They'll be moving out here sometime during the summer. I won't actually say the towns name (and I was going to put pictures) but honestly, I think that's a little creepy, so I'm not going to. However, I'll leave you with a picture taken a few winters ago when I used to ski race.

Two Things

1- I'm cutting back on my blogging. Like one or two posts a week.

2- I made a life changing decision, or am making it, or trying to decide if I want to make it. But its big...actually huge. And I'll let you know if/when I've made this decision.

I made this decision and if you really want to know IM. After a lot of thought I've decided what I need to decide. And its done. And not that amazing. Morena, thanks for the chat. I less than three you. ( I <3 you)

I'm starting to think that therapy may be a good idea again.

I'm legal!

and registered to vote. Nothing much else. Woke up with a hurting knee (from not wearing my brace skiing) so I took some Aleeve and left for school. And tonight I'm going to dinner with Ethan. And that's it....nothing else going on.

Talk to you all soon!

White Horse - WATCH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Taylor Swift More CMT Music More CMT Music Videos

Thank you CMT for giving us this. Let's do the play by play.

1-love the rain
2-love the mouth close ups and how there's actually a story line
3-no heart tatoo on her foot like there usually is. i know she draws it on, but i'd like to see it.
4-love the light vs dark contrast, which equals happy and love vs sad and heartbreak, and taylor and stephen colletti (SO FREAKING HOT)
5-the friend should have been Abigail.
6-I kinda feel like she's wearing a guys sweater
7-2:33 - He's in trouble!
8-3:30 to the end. Amazing.
9-Her crying could have been more dramatic.
10-Watching it made me cry. It felt like the worst heartbreak over and over again.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I freaking love it. Its her best yet. She did so good on this. WATCH IT!!!


In other news, my sister never showed. Which pisses me off. Typical. But I said I wouldn't get my hopes up over it, and I did just a bit. And once again I am diaspointed to the extreme. When you make a promise to someone, keep it.

Two Days...*My Grammy Predictions*

My choice is bolded, comments italicized.

BEST NEW ARTIST
Adele
Duffy
The Jonas Brothers why the fuck are they nominated????
Lady Antebellum
Jazmine Sullivan

ALBUM OF THE YEAR
Alison Krauss & Robert Plant, Raising Sand
Coldplay, Viva La Vida
Ne-Yo, Year Of The Gentleman
Lil Wayne, Tha Carter III
Radiohead, In Rainbows

BEST ALTERNATIVE ALBUM
Beck, Modern Guilt
Death Cab For Cutie, Narrow Stair
Gnarls Barkley, The Odd Couple
My Morning Jacket, Evil Urges
Radiohead, In Rainbows

BEST COUNTRY COLLABORATION WITH VOCALS
Kenny Chesney & George Strait, "Shiftwork"
Robert Plant & Alison Krauss, "Killing The Blues"
George Strait & Patty Loveless, "House Of Cash"
Sugarland, Jake Owen, & Little Big Town, "Life In A Northern Town" they should win.
Trisha Yearwood & Keith Urban, "Let The Wind Chase You"

BEST COUNTRY PERFORMANCE BY A DUO OR GROUP
Brooks & Dunn, "God Must Be Busy"
Lady Antebellum, "Love Don't Love Here"
Rascal Flatts, "Every Day"
The Steel Drivers, "Blue Side Of The Mountain"
Sugarland, "Stay"
all are amazing.

BEST DANCE RECORDING
Daft Punk, "Harder Better Faster Stronger"
Hot Chip, "Ready For The Floor"
Lady Gaga & Colby O'Donis, "Just Dance"
Madonna, "Give It 2 Me"
Rihanna, "Disturbia"
Sam Sparro, "Black & Gold"

BEST ELECTRONIC/DANCE ALBUM
Brazilian Girls, New York City
Daft Punk, Alive 2007
Cyndi Lauper, Bring Ya To The Brink
Kylie Minogue, X
Moby, Last NightRobyn

BEST HARD ROCK PERFORMANCE
Disturbed, "Inside The Fire"
Judas Priest, "Visions"
The Mars Volta, "Wax Simulacra"
Motley Crue, "Saints Of Los Angeles"
Rob Zombie, "Lords Of Salem"

BEST METAL PERFORMANCE
Dragonforce, "Heroes Of Our Time"
Judas Priest, "Nostradamus"
Metallica, "My Apocalypse"
Ministry, "Under My Thumb"
Slipknot, "Psychosocial"

BEST POP COLLABORATION WITH VOCALS
Alicia Keys and John Mayer, "Lessons Learned"
Madonna, Justin Timberlake, and Timbaland, "4 Minutes"
Robert Plant and Alison Krauss, "Rich Woman"
Rihanna and Maroon 5, "If I Never See Your Face Again"
Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown, "No Air"

BEST POP PERFORMANCE, FEMALE
Adele, "Chasing Pavements"
Sara Bareilles, "Love Song"
Duffy, "Mercy"
Leona Lewis, "Bleeding Love"
Katy Perry, "I Kissed A Girl"
Pink, "So What"
actually this one I'm not sure about

BEST POP PERFORMANCE, MALE
Kid Rock, "All Summer Long"
John Mayer, "Say"i hate this song. and the kid rock song
Paul McCartney, "That Was Me"
Jason Mraz, "I'm Yours"
Ne-Yo, "Closer"
James Taylor, "Wichita Lineman"

BEST POP PERFORMANCE BY A DUO OR GROUP WITH VOCALS
Coldplay, "Viva La Vida"
Eagles, "Waiting In The Weeds"
Gnarls Barkle, "Going On"
Maroon 5, "Won't Go Home Without You" LOVE This song
OneRepublic, "Apologize"

BEST RAP ALBUM
Jay-Z, American Gangster
Lil Wayne, Tha Carter III
Lupe Fiasco, The CoolNas
T.I., Paper Trail

BEST RAP PERFORMANCE BY A DUO OR GROUP I don't really listen to rap, so I'm skipping these
Big Boi feat. Raekwon & Andre 3000, "Royal Flush"
T.I. feat. Kanye West & Lil Wayne, "Swagger Like Us"
Lil Wayne feat. Jay-Z, "Mr Carter"
Ludacris feat. T.I., "Wish You Would"
Young Jeezy feat. Kanye West, "Put On"

BEST RAP/SUNG COLLABORATION
Estelle feat. Kanye West, "American Boy"
Flo Rida feat. T-Pain, "Low"
John Legend feat. Andre 3000, "Green Light"
Lil Wayne feat. T-Pain, "Got Money"
Lupe Fiasco feat. Matthew Santos, "Superstar"

BEST R & B PERFORMANCE BY A DUO OR GROUP WITH VOCALS
Boyz II Men, "Ribbon In The Sky"
Anthony David feat. India.Arie, "Words"
Al Green feat. John Legend, "Stay With Me (By The Sea)"
Jennifer Hudson feat. Fantasia, "I'm His Only Woman"
Raphael Saadiq feat. Stevie Wonder & CJ Hilton, "Never Give You Up"

BEST ROCK ALBUM
Coldplay, Viva La Vida Or Death And All His Friends
Kid Rock, Rock N Roll Jesus
Kings Of Leon, Only By The Night
Metallica, Death Magnetic
Raconteurs, Consolers Of The Lonely

BEST ROCK SONG
Bruce Springsteen, "Girls In Their Summer Clothes"
Radiohead, "House Of Cards"
Death Cab For Cutie, "I Will Possess Your Heart"
Kings Of Leon, "Sex On Fire"
Coldplay, "Violet Hill"

BEST SOUNDTRACK
American Gangster
August Rush
Juno
Mamma Mia!
Sweeney Todd—The Demon Barber Of Fleet Street
i love them all

BEST SONG FOR A MOTION PICTURE, TV SHOW, OR OTHER VISUAL MEDIA
"Down To Earth" (Wall-E)
"Ever Ever After" (Enchanted)
"Say" (The Bucket List)
"That's How You Know" (Enchanted)
"Walk Hard" (Walk Hard—The Dewey Cox Story)

PRODUCER OF THE YEAR, NON-CLASSICAL
Danger Mouse
Nigel Godrich
Johnny Karkazis
Rick Rubin
will.i.am

BEST SHORT-FORM MUSIC VIDEO
Erykah Badu, "Honey"
Gnarls Barkley, "Who's Gonna Save My Soul"
Alicia Keys & Jack White, "Another Way To Die"
Radiohead, "House Of Cards"
Weezer, "Pork & Beans"

SONG OF THE YEAR
"American Boy," William Adams, Keith Harris, Josh Lopez, Caleb Speir, John Stephens, Estelle Swaray & Kanye West, songwriters (Estelle Featuring Kanye West, artist)
"Chasing Pavements," Adele Adkins & Eg White, songwriters (Adele, artist)
"I'm Yours," Jason Mraz, songwriter (Jason Mraz, artist)
"Love Song," Sara Bareilles, songwriter (Sara Bareilles, artist)
"Viva La Vida," Guy Berryman, Jonny Buckland, Will Champion & Chris Martin, songwriters (Coldplay, artist)

RECORD OF THE YEAR
Adele, "Chasing Pavements"
Coldplay, "Viva La Vida"
Leona Lewis, "Bleeding Love"
M.I.A., "Paper Planes"
Robert Plant and Alison Kraus, "Please Read The Letter"


So that's it. You know what really makes me mad is the fact that the best selling solo artist of 2008 got snubbed by all and go no nominations. From album (8 weeks on Billboard Top 200 and 12 Weeks on the Country Charts) and most digital dowloads ("Our Song" just passed like the 3 million mark, and "Love Story" is double platinum.) and outsold EVERY one else didn't get any Grammy Nods. Oh well, 2009 is the year that Taylor Swift dominates. Her tour is already on sale for some locations and the first venue sold out in less than 48 hours.

But she is performing at the Grammy's....Fifteen. One of the best songs on the album. However, she's doing it with Miley Cyrus. Horribleness. Taylor, I though better of you. Sinking that low to someone who soundds like a man and cannot dance. If Miley murders the song, I'll cry. Honestly.

3 to 18 - BIRTHDAY WEEKEND

Found it on Flickr.

I cannot believe its finally here. YAY! Yet, I have no plans...well, kinda. Tonight, I'm doing all my schoolwork. Then tommarow, my sister called, she's in Toronto and is flying down and staying with friends here in NY for awhile and then she's off to anywhere, and she's coming down. As much as I'm mad at her, I'm glad I get to see her. So we're going to hangout and then go to dinner that night with friends, hers and mine. I'll probably have to end up paying. And then Sunday, its upstate to go skiing (YAY!!!) and then home. First thing in the AM, I'm buying a lotto ticket and registeting to vote.

Its so COLD here. ugh. I'm under my snuggie, and a down comforter.

5 to 18. *She dances inspite...

Of the fact that she's different, but yet she's the same.* - Taylor Swift, Lucky You.


Playing guitar...I lost my pics.


ice through a window


The bruised hand...some day around Jan 4.



Ummm there was more I was going to put up, but I can't seem to find them....anyhoo. Nothing else to report today.

6 to 18 - Yuck

PhotoCredit-Me
Of- taken from my chest looking up with my bathroom mirrors all turned together. I really loved how the lights look.

Ummm so the snowy-slushy-mess is digusting. I came home, showered, and then now I'm under my Snuggie. They aren't as goofy/stupid/pointless as they look.

I loved my outfit today. I got so many compliments one it. Oh, I should tell you what it is, dark wash skinny jeans, lace trim cami, knee high brown leather boots, white button down with various bracelets and lots of necklaces. I kinda looked like I was set for the stables. Haha.

I'm getting my hair done. I'm excited. But kinda scared about what'll happen to it.

7 to 18 *Did I mention the iTouch?*

Photo Credit - me
Of - me
Taken - last week

I also changed the blog name. Its more fitting now, I think.

Anyway, for tonight's ramble, I'll rant on how much I love my itouch. I did have the iPhone. And I really did love it, but it was complex and I butt dialed alot. So when the thingy expired earlier this year, I bought a new little phone. Nothing complex, just calling and texting. And then I had to resort to my little orange shuffle that I run with...which honestly, I hate. So I begged my parents to get me the touch for my birthday, and they did. I paid for part of it because I wanted the 32 GB. And I love it. It is a lot like the iphone, but I love it. It makes me happy. Its so pretty.


Anyway....that's it. One week to my 18th and I have no plans. I really want to go gamble, but since its on a Monday, that makes the whole I-can't-go-away-with-school thing. And I can't go the weekend before, and the weekend after is Valentines Day, aka I wear pink, eat chocolate and sing love ballads all day while my valentine sulks because "its a pointless holiday and too commercial and blahblahblah." He refuses to take me to dinner, or even recognize the fact that its the day of luuuuuurve. Loser.

So I'm attempting to make plans. Hopefully that'll work out.

8 to 18. *Beyond these walls that hold us here...*

skies that stetch across a midnight clear.
Oh, a revolution is near.
In my dream I hear the echoes of the recent battle
Lostand wounded as the faded cries begin to settle for the night
But the words you use to hurt me now
Only seem to make me strong some how
Oh a revolution is now
And the days will get warmer, and I'll take down my armor
Together we can fight this feeling
And the demons that stalk us will eventually turn to dust
Together we can start this healing
-FeFe Dobson "Revlution"


Go listen to this song. Its amazing.

My mom found a house. She took pictures and I have them, but I really don't want to but them up here....for obvious reasons. Its an 8 bedroom house with a basement where they're going to add two more room, plus a playroom. Its just about an hour from the city, north. It has a big backyard, which is amazing. No pool though. I like it. She just waiting for my dad's approval and then they're going to buy it.

I'm alone, basking in silence. Ethan's at a superbowl party and I'm alone. I love being alone.

I almost lost a kid today. That was insanely scary.

And, Miss Raven, if you are reading, I don't know if you are or not. I love you and your amazing and your gonna get through this. You deserve everything that's good in life. I'm really glad that I "met" you. Thanks for everything you've done for me and you know I'm here if you need to rant. I owe you a few. *sends good vibes in your direction.*