My favorite spring fashion trend...

4 Ways To Wear - by the_wanderer on Polyvore.com

I have a strange addiction to these things. The ones pictured are from American Eagle and I've bought all 5(?) colors because I love them that much. I'm wearing some now..and its really cold out.

Seriously...this bipolar weather pisses me off. When I left for California it was a sunny 61 degrees. I get back and its 43 and rainy. Actually, I lie, its not raining anymore, but its still cloudy and kinda windy. California, minus the reason I had to go there, was amazing. I spent time with my family yesterday and I've missed those kids so much. We made homemade pasta. Yum.

Ummmm let's see, I'm really bored and have an essay to write. I'm watching Cycle 7 of ANTM and trying not to fall asleep. I really want to buy a better guitar too. Mine's kinda crappy. My cello is also out of tune and that pisses me off. I can't find my tuner pitch thing anywhere. Anyway, I have a few videos for you guys that will be up soon. I promise. :) Oh - how would you guys feel about me doing a song in Greek or Italian...I've figured out "Fearless" in Greek. It's a bit different because the phrases are longer than English.

My new favorite song is "Love is Gone" by The Script. Go check it out. Its pretty awesome. Well, toodles. I'm gonna go attempt to get this essay thing done. Immigration during the 19th Century and how it affected the Reconstruction in the Post-Civil War era.

Thrilling.

The last two days.

Friday morning when me and Ethan were playing Halo (I was kicking his ass btw) we got a phone call from my mother saying she was at the hospital. My head immediately raced to the kids...which one fell? What happened? Were they fighting, playing, car accident? But it wasn't any of them...it was Ethan's mom.

She had a heart attack. Lucky enough, she never takes her phone out of her pocket, and dialed my house. My mom called the ambulance and was brought to the hospital. From there, they brought her to LA (where I am now). She's not overweight and she's the healthiest eater I know. She's a smoker and that's what brought this on.

Don't smoke, ever. Please? I've seen it do terrible things to so many people.

She's okay. She had bypass surgery and the doctor said everything will heal great. But it scared

us. Scared us all....this was completely preventable.

And I've learned I suck at comforting people. It is a tad bit awkward, but now I know how he felt all last summer with me.

I figured I'd let you all know. I'm probably heading up home tomorrow to see my family and then I leave again Monday. I'm so sick of flying/traveling. I spend way to much time off the ground. Never a dull moment.

I want to hold your hand...

Untitled - by the_wanderer on Polyvore.com

So, I'm home and am honestly so insanely happy. Its probably endorphins or whatever. But my camera is being an idiot and isn't uploading my pictures....they'll be up eventually. Hopefully. :)

So for today point. I want to hold your hand. This was all inspired by a great movie, and book, one of my favorites, Nick and Nora.

"The Beatles, they had it all figured out, okay? "I Want to Hold Your Hand." The first single. It's effing brilliant, right?... That's what everybody wants. They don't want a twenty-four-hour hump sesh, they don't want to be married to you for a hundred years. They just want to hold your hand. "

Lyrics:
I tell you something
I think you'll understand
When I say that something
I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
Please say to me
You'll let me be your man
And please say to me
You'll let me hold your hand
Now let me hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand
And when I touch you I feel happy inside
It's such a feeling that my love, I can't hide
I want to hold your hand.


Now...I had a minor rant on twitter earlier. I'm copy and pasting it in, then rambling for awhile.

Nothin gets better than hand holding. Ever. While walking, while kissing, driving...anytime, anywhere. It conectects you to that one person and really - that's all that matters. Knowing that you don't want to let go at all. Ever.

Okay. So lets expand on this idea.

I don't think that in any relationship ever starts by look at someone and going "I want to fuck them hard." No...its' "I want to know more about that person and spend time. I want to hold their hand."

Maybe some people go straight to bed...idk. But really, it is the easiest and greatest way to just say "Hey, I like you, it may not be forever, but for now, I just want to do this."

I love this song, thought whatever. I could ramble forever. I love hand holding...I love love. I'm just in a really great mood. Seriously....its been a long time since I've been this way. I love this feeling. The whole that was in me is gone for the most part...there will always be a scab to remind me, but for now, I don't plan on picking it off like a little kid.

Actually - I lied. One thing is pissing me off. The customs people in Boston stole my wine. That was expensive wine too. Aparently under-21s can't bring alcohol into the country...umm...Bullshit?

Whatever.....I'm having my Grandma mail me some. :) And remember...hand holding rocks!

I've deleted last night's post.

Long story short...I don't want to come here someday and relive that. Like Raven said, it's really not that big of a deal...but still. It was a mistake. I can handle that. No one is perfect.

Anyway...I guess everything is good between me and Ethan...I really don't know. I talked to him a bit tonight, but whatever. If he gets all extreme about this because its just not that big of a deal.

Hmm, so I go home Wednesday...well, start my trip home, technically I'll leave Wed and get to NY on Wed, but its still over 24 hours of travel time, including annoying layovers.

Ummmmm yeah. I think that I'm gonna sleep now.

Btw, you all need to get a twitter. Seriously.

The constant sun

I was going to put a poem I wrote up here, but would much rather stay here in my bed before getting up. I set my alarm for 6 so I'd have time to get ready before we left to go to Mykonos and right now its a little after 5. Whatever, I've discovered recently that I am very nocturnal. I should do this in a list form.

1-I love it here. So much. Note the twitter updates one the right. I've been putting these up about 5 times a day. Its easier than blogging.
2-Its been 70 degrees and sunny everyday. No clouds in sight most of the time. Love.
3-The moon here is amazing. Actually, stunning would be the better word. Sad part is pictures don't capture it well enough.
4-The fact that typing this is really hard, because I've been thinking/talking in Greek.
5-I have a TAN. and freckles - which are still wierd to me that I've got them.
6-My cousin has fallen for Kate. Kate has fallen for my cousin. Neither can speak each other's language...leaving me to be their translator. Not fun....
7-Cliff diving....is exhilerating. Hiking to the cliff is not.
8-I have a blister from not being used to wearing flipflops...ouch.
9-I hate the fact that the US$ is shit in Europe.
10-I love the fact that right now, I'm looking out my window and can see the sun rising over Fira.
11-I really love how some things you'll never forget. Like the nice old lady at the fish market my uncles sell at....she was acient and is still sitting in the same spot selling squid when I was a little kid.
12-The fact that I can sit at my uncles with Kate and George and my other cousins and drink wine, as much as we want...and not get introuble.
13-I love the fact that donkeys are awesome.
14-I love how there's no cars, or very few cars here.
15-I love that I'm home. :) Do I have to go back to real life?

Picture TIME!!!!

This is the view from the ferry as you get to the island. :)


SUNSET...the outer islands. one has hotsprings and is an active volcano, the other is just a lump of land with people living there.

Before I leave...

I leave for Greece tomorrow, so excited. Finally going home. But anyay, my gift for you guys is a medly of some of the songs. It started out as three, but they refuse to upload.

However, it is youtube, so Morena sorry you can't listen/see again. Actually there's nothing much to see except for the top of the guitar, my wall, and me for like 4 seconds.

Which, by the way, I look like crap. I got up today and ran. This was after my run/gym and I look disgusting....yellowish, my hair looks crap and my eyes look huge and black...but whatever.

Also, you know I can't sing. At all. I used to sing, really greatly and I think it was in my months of not really talking at all I lost it. But its definatly coming back, so by thsi summer, maybe I'll actually get a good video up.

Oh yeah, and I laugh a lot while attempting to sing during this. So ignore that. You're welcome to laugh to, a lot. At me.



And you've all got a shout out too! I'll probably post while I'm away, but if not TTYL.

A minorly huge freakout.....

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMGOMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

okay...that's enough.

well...anyway, i'm not going to even bother using proper typing skills, etc, but anyway....

I GOT THIRD ROW TAYLOR SWIFT TICKETS AT MSG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so freaking excited. it was 230 bucks for three tickets, so it better worth it, which i don't doubt.

anyway.....now that you're all like "omg, she's a freak talking about that blonde girl 24/7"

i just need to share the excitement a bit...haha. i've been like...high on excitement all day. which is a bit insane because its like 6 months away.

so, goodnight.

You lift my feet off the ground, spin me around...

You make me crazier, crazier, crazier.

That is my new favorite song. You should listen. It would be a great thing for you to do. It is by Taylor Swift. And again, she ceases to amaze me. I love it. These lyrics are great. I forced E to dance with me...just because I love it that much...but he was like "rawr (made that noise not actually saying rawr) my foot hurts."

Loser. Oh...but you guys don't really know...my idiot (that's what I'm calling him now) stubbed his toe Sunday night, broke the nail, blood everywhere, swelling and bruised. So he wakes me up and is like "baby, it hurts. I think its broken." I'm like "stop acting like a girl." and try to go back to sleep while he bleeds all over our bed. Lovely.

Anyway...we ended up at the hospital at 3:30 am, because he couldn't bend it. Turns out its like, sprained. idk. They took like a needle thing and drained the swelling fluid stuff from it - so nasty.

But anyway...I'll get my dance sooner or later. Hah.

Three Things I am excited for:

1. Taylor Swift tickets go onsale tomorrow for her ny show. YAY.
2. I'm possibly, 90% going to a Britney Spears concert tomorrow!
3. I might audition for ANTM on Sunday....my lack of hieght/ugliness/wierd body porportions could be an issue. A couple of my friends and I might go just for fun.
4. Twilight DVD? YES....I'm over it...but I really just want to buy this DVD so I can mock it. Should be fun.
5. The fact that I can play like 4389672305 songs on guitar now. YES! Expect a concert soon!

Ignore my last post.

The whole crappy day yesterday and basically everything that made me so disgustingly mad at the world (this has really nothing to do with anything) but anyway, I solved my problem....a problem I didn't create.

Anyway...so 5 things I am really, really, excited about:

1-CSI tonight, with Taylor Swift as the guest star. I'm curious about her acting ability. It'll be either great or a trainwreck. So I'll be watching that.

2-Going home...to my real, true home. Greece. In a few short weeks. Yay!

3-The fact that I can now play 6 of my top 10 all time favorite songs fairly well on guitar. There will be a small concert of me playing up soon. So yay for some talent! Also, for you guys to learn, its really not that hard to do. Guitars are only like 100 bucks, and if you learn D, A, Em, G, C, and Bm you can play like 25 thousand songs....its amazing.

4-The fact that my voice is coming back. Yay for zythromax!

5-The fact that when I went bathing suit shopping, everything I tried on looked amazing. Espically the abs. UGH I LOVE THEM! So I got bikinis to show them off. Yay for the gym!


And honestly, for the first time in a long time, I'm happy. Its so great. I feel amazing, my body feels great, I'm comfortable in my skin. The twinkle in my eyes is back. Just...right now, I feel like nothing could go wrong. It is an amazing feeling to have. Minus yesterday.....

Toodles!

What pisses me off - March 1st

Happy March! Its officially been 9 months without Kelli as of about two hours ago. So much has happened. It was just over a year ago that we found out it came back, and then 4 months later she was gone. :(

Anyway...here's my piss-off. Seriously. I'm going to rant a lot so be prepared. :)



So this was taken from an "OMG TWILIGHT SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN AN OSCAR RPATTZ IS SO SEXY" set on polyvore. I'm the_wanderer and i'm trying to show this imbescils that twilight is a horrible movie and blah blah blah.

Twilight, while an enjoyable read isn't that great. It also isn't real literature. I think one of the comments in the set was "Wall-E won an award so why not Twilight?"

UMMMMM BECAUSE THERE'S A FREAKING ANIMATED CATEGORY. losers.

so yeah..that's what really makes me mad. I'm going to go now before I ramble way too much!